Wednesday, July 2, 2025

So what do you write???

About four months ago. . .


I watch her in our line dancing class with envy.  She can move much faster than I can.

I should get to know her better.  Maybe she could teach me a thing or two."

I'm glad when there's an opportunity for us to chat. We both see these words on a woman's shirt.

"I'll think about it."

I tell her that my first husband would always cringe when I said, "I've been thinking..." because he knew it meant a project, and she laughs.  Then I say, "I once wrote a column called, 'I've been thinking, ' and she said, "What do you write now?"

And I answer, "a blog that  I call Sunshine and Shadows."  


Later that day, I opened that blog.  My last entry was in October 2024.


What happened to me?  Too busy???   Or thinking about other things???  And what have I thought about?


Faith - I've been a believer since I was a small child.  I faintly remember copying my preacher granddaddy one morning, shaking my finger and saying, "Sinner, you need to repent".


Family - upcoming college graduations for granddaughters; one is also getting married; a grandson is about to go on a mission trip to Mexico.


Friends - spending time sharing joys and sorrows


The words above this sentence were written on March 11.  I now know more about the woman I chatted with.  I wouldn't say we've become friends, but I can tell you that we share a few things in common. The main thing is that we are both widows.  


Fast forward a month.  On April 8, I was enjoying a visit with my cousin, Rick, and his wife, Cheryl.  He asked me, "Do you still enjoy writing?  I nodded affirmatively.


"What have you written? Don't you have a blog?"


Later that day,  I opened my blog and found the beginning of this entry.


Now, it is more than two months since I wrote those words.  Have I lost my penchant for putting my thoughts into words and my words on a page???


Life has happened.  Two granddaughters graduated from college; one granddaughter is married.  A close friend passed away, and my time as the Volunteer Coordinator at the Mandarini Museum & Historical Society came to an end. The position has grown into a full-time role as Operations Manager.  I need to work, but not full-time.   I'm going to need a part-time position (approximately 20 hours a week) that involves serving others, utilizing my creativity, and my love for others ...that's how I make my house payment.


And --- I'm going to be serious about 

I don't know how this will end.  But I am sure it will be an adventure figuring it out!  I do want to write a book.  


And as always. .  .  


May you have enough sunshine in your life,

  to help you appreciate the shadows





Sunday, June 15, 2025

"Tell me a story..."

There's a little song that goes, "Tell me a story, tell me a story, tell me a story before I go to bed.  Tell me about the birds and bees; tell me what makes a chicken sneeze, tell me a story before I go to bed".

We never needed to sing that for our daddy.  He could always tell us a story - for Cindy and me, it was about life when he was a child, and then when the boys were born, it was about life on the ball field or basketball court and the war.  He never told Cindy and me any of the stories that Jonathan and Lester heard - and he loved telling those stories to his grandsons.

When I think of my father, I think of a man who made fudge (with his eyes closed) loved God, Golf, and the Florida Gators. 

But above all, he cherished us - his wife, his children, and later, his grandchildren and great-grandchildren. We were his world.

I often say that I inherited my writing abilities from my parents.  Mother wrote beautiful notes, and daddy was a great storyteller.

This is the 15th Father's Day that Cindy, Lester, and I have experienced without our daddy.  We still miss him so much.  However, as I thought about him and what he meant to all of us, I remembered that he left some stories about his growing-up years for us.  We are fortunate that mother encouraged him to tell her some of them, and they are in a notebook that I helped them write.

I am happy that some of his stories made it into print.  And there are some that we all cherish.

Daddy was the second of five children born to Lonnie Burton Jones and Theodore James Huffiingham.  His brother, Ted Jr., was just 19 months older.  They lost two brothers, Donald as a small child and Charles, who was 16 when he died of nephritis.  They all adored their sister, Gloria Faye.

Ted Huffingham, Sr., always had a job but never made enough money.  Daddy remembered going to the end of Arlington Road and meeting the ferry when his dad worked at Ford Motor Company.  He did not always work there.  At some point, he began working for General Outdoor (a sign company that later became Lamar Dean Outdoor), but I'm getting ahead of my story.  They lived in a small house on his grandparents' property, located between University and Beach Boulevards.

The memories daddy had about not having enough money include the fact that his mother made soda bread (a type of hard biscuit), and that's what she would make into a sandwich for him to take to school.

That embarrassed him.

So, he often watched as others ate sandwiches made with  "store-bought" bread.  He would be starving as he walked up the lane to their house after getting off the school bus.  He remembers the smell of French fries, biscuit bread, and milk gravy that his mother was preparing for her children.

The Huffinghams attended the Methodist church in the community.  Daddy's grandfather, John, and his grandmother's father, Louis Savery, had given the money to build the church and a school. It was also the church where the family of Ellie and Pauline Nesmith worshipped.  That's how it happened that it was the place where daddy met the girl who would later become his high school sweetheart and his wife.

He loved visiting his maternal grandparents.  They would go and spend the day with Grandma and Grandpa Jones, and every time he was there, his grandpa made sure that they had "store-bought" creamed corn for Earl.  That was still one of his favorites when he died in 2009.

One of mother's favorite stories is about daddy and a baseball glove. He was in grammar school when he saw a glove in the window of a hardware store.  He saved every penny he could get his hands on.  

"I'll never forget the way I felt when I walked out of that store with my glove in my hand." I was so happy to have it - I slept with it under my pillow."

Mother always said that was a sign that he would take care of things that he loved - and that's precisely what he did for his wife and their children.

Daddy loved sports - he was too small (130 pounds) for football, but he excelled at basketball and baseball. He played right field and was offered a baseball scholarship to Stetson, but he declined it.  He was supposed to graduate from Landon in 1939. Instead, he convinced the coach that he should stay in school for another year.  He enjoyed running the gym classes while the coaches were gone with the team to an away game.

On daddy's 20th birthday, he gave our mother an engagement ring.  He had already volunteered for the armed services and knew he was headed into the war.  That summer, they were married and had seven weeks together before he shipped out to the Philippines.

The war ended, and he came home, beginning the life they shared for more than 67 years.

One of my favorite stories about daddy is one that I have only heard of.  When grandma Jones died in 1956, there was not enough money to pay for her burial. Funeral homes and cemeteries were different then.  They would handle all arrangements and then ask for payment. My grandmother's sisters, brother, and many of their children were at one of the sisters' homes after the service and her burial at Greenlawn.  As they visited, daddy spoke up.

"We all loved our grandparents," he said. "And there's not enough money to bury grandma."

And so, to use an old-fashioned term, Daddy "passed the hat" and in a day or so, went to Naugle and paid the bill.

As Father's Day approached, I heard a few people answering a question: "What's one word to describe your father?"

I pondered that question and thought of many words.  I couldn't think of just one.  And then I reread daddy's story in their book.

Caring.

May you have enough sunshine in your life,  to make you appreciate the shadows

Monday, May 26, 2025

Yes, daddy - the flag is up!

 


My parents hadn't lived with me very long before there was a flag post in my yard - proudly holding a flag that had flown in Iraq, where my nephew Brad Williams was serving our country as a member of the Army National Guard.  Daddy had instilled a strong sense of patriotism and service in the lives of Brad, his twin brother, Chad, and my son, Tray.  He was so proud of all three!

Daddy had served in the Philippines in World War II.  My sister, Cindy, and I knew very little about his service there.  We knew he was the first "boy" from South Jacksonville to enlist - just a few days after December 7, 1941, and two weeks before he gave mother an engagement ring. He was off to Shreveport, Louisiana, before she graduated from Landon High School and wrote her when he got promoted to sergeant in mid-June.  He told her to plan a wedding.  She was all for that!  They were married just 7 weeks, still honeymooning in Shreveport, when he got on a train headed west and her train was on the way to Jacksonville.  The next time they saw each other was in December 1945.  

We did know about mother's brother, Ellie Rudolph Nesmith who was killed over Germany in 1944.  He had been one of daddy's closest friends, and his picture was on the piano at my grandparents' home for much of my growing-up years.  There was also a room called "The Prayer Room" at  Glendale Community Church that was a memorial to the only son of my grandparents.  And I've often wondered if that loss contributed to the wonderful care they gave to others.

As the years passed and two little brothers came into our family, daddy seemed to talk more about his life as a soldier. He was of the old school, and you didn't talk to your little girls about that.

We were grown with families of our own when he started hearing about some squadron reunions. That became very important to our parents, and they so enjoyed the times they shared with his old friends. Once, it was in Jacksonville, and our whole family participated in welcoming this group.  We loved it!!!

By 2005, when my mother and dad moved in with me, daddy's patriotism had become one of the most important parts of his life. At first, he made sure the flag was up at daybreak and took it down at sunset. And then there came a time when the "chore" became mine.

One thing I heard almost every morning in the summer of 2009 was, "Is the flag up?".

After daddy died, I began to take flowers to Greenlawn Cemetery at least four times a year.  Our family plot has grown.  This year, we added Uncle Bill Weitzel, and when the marker arrives, we will add Uncle Howard Beardslee. Daddy's brother, Ted Huffingham, Jr. is buried close by. They all served - as did Uncle Henry Capp.  And Rich Suhey served - he's buried in our family plot (my name is already on the marker).

I have a flag that stays up all the time now  (not to worry, I have an outdoor light that is always on).


That way, each morning when I start my day, I know that daddy would be pleased.  

Yes, daddy, the flag is up.  And tell mother I've added a birdhouse - you all would have loved watching for birds to come for a treat!

May you have enough sunshine in your life,  to make you appreciate the shadows


Wednesday, May 21, 2025

Flowers for Mother's Day

My daughters were in high school. As happens to mothers and daughters during that time in life, they were both irritated with me about something. However, when the teens at our church distributed roses to their mothers, they both made a beeline for me. All these years later, when I think they might be irritated, I like to remember that year.

By now, I don't think irritated would be a word in their vocabulary.  They have pretty much settled into adulthood, and their children are all older than they were on that Mother's Day.  I'm no longer a reason for them to be irritated. Well maybe just a little.

Becca usually gives me smell-good pampering items.

Renee sends me a plant or a floral arrangement.

I was surprised this year when I opened a box from Renee. 

I read the directions before I sent her a text that said, "This is going to be a fun exercise".

She didn't understand until I sent her this photo with these explanations:  They are tulip bulbs. The wood chips are there to protect the product when it is being shipped.

When I told my Master Gardener friend about the gifts, she had a word of warning.  "Tulips explode".  I responded, "You mean there will be a lot of them?:

"No," she said, "They will 'poof' explode".

So I put the container filled with tulip bulbs in my front yard, and this is how they looked one week after planting. It has been fun to watch, water, and turn the plants a few degrees each day to align with the sun.


And of course, there's a lesson.

There have been a time or two when I felt everything was ugly and I was even a bit useless. When I didn't think there was going to be any fun doing anything, and I was probably just waiting for "poof—EXPLODE."

But just like Becca and Renee got through being irritated with their mother - and wanted to be sure I had a rose that Mother's Day, while life may sometimes feel like the ugly tulip bulbs that arrived this year, in time, everything becomes beautiful.

58 years ago this Spring, I decided I should not marry Ray Parker, even though he was going to be a preacher. In my heart, I knew that was what God was calling me to be.

I went to church one Sunday morning, and there was a picture of a little girl an umbrella in her hand and some flowers in the other. The scripture said something like, "If you do what God wants you to do, he will give you rain in due season."

I determined my best move was to marry, and we did that summer. There were some ugly times, but the children that came from that marriage have been as lovely to me as the pretty tulips that Renee sent me for Mother's Day.

They are a constant reminder of God's blessings for me -- no matter what might be happening.

PS Tray also gives nice presents: These flowers don't need watering or sunlight and will not fade.

 May you have enough sunshine in your life. . . .  

. . .  to make you appreciate the shadows



Sunday, May 11, 2025

"Lord, Say Hello to Mama"

It's one way I am like my mother.

When she and her sisters wrote about their lives in 1980, those words were the title she chose for her chapter.  Her reasoning for the title?

Ted Huffingham (our daddy's dad) died in February 1967.  My youngest brother, Lester, was five years old, and soon after Papa had died, Lester looked up to the heavens and said, "Hello, Papa".

Pauline Mercer Nesmith, who was my mother's mother, passed away in May 1971.  

Mother recounted many times that she wished she could tell her mother something. However, she developed a habit of saying it out loud, sometimes saying something like, "Lord, tell mama."

Now that my mother is also gone, I often think of something I'd like to tell her.  I remember the many cups of tea we shared, talking about our lives. I really enjoyed my mother's company.

And often when I have my afternoon cup of tea, I wish she were here for me to talk to.  She always had a different way to look at what I was dealing with.  

I recently saw an advertisement for a book entitled,  Things I Wish I Had Told My Mother.  My first reaction was rather smug.

There's nothing I didn't tell my mother.  Except. . .

Our brother Jonathan, died in 2020.  He had visited her about six weeks before his death, and although we all knew his time was short, my siblings and I agreed that we would not tell her.

It surprised us, but we believe she mentioned him only once. 

On Mother's Day in 2021, she said, "Wonder how Jonathan is?" Lester spoke up.  "I'm sure he's having a nice day".

A little more than a year later, when the funeral home representative was about to take her body away, I said, 

 "And I never had to tell you".

I remain glad that we kept that from her.

Now, if you are reading this and you know me even a little bit, you know that I tell everyone - everything.

If you knew my mother, you also know, "I got that from her."

Fortunately, I also have her smile and her eyes.

And I still talk to her - just as she talked to her mama.

 May you have enough sunshine in your life. . . .  to make you appreciate the shadows

Tuesday, May 6, 2025

Sentimental? ? ?

It comes as no surprise to most people when I admit that I am very sentimental. I married Ray Parker on my parents' 25th wedding anniversary, and I married Rich Suhey the weekend my mother was celebrating her 75th birthday. I also keep things for a long time. Last year, I wore the shoes I had worn to my daughter's wedding in 1995, and when they got wet, they fell apart. But that's another story.

This has been hanging in my closet for five-plus decades.  

What does one do with a wedding dress?

That was my dilemma for many years.  

When I was about to marry in 1967, my mother, my sister, Cindy, and I went shopping. Our first stop was a bridal shop in San Marco. I found what I thought was the perfect dress. It was less than $100 (Remember, this was 58 years ago). I was ready to purchase.  

However, we heard that buying the first dress was not a good idea, so we went across the river into Jacksonville. We went to Cohen's and to Furchgott's. I tried on a few, but I was still convinced that the first one was "the one." 

So, back to San Marco we went.

The salesperson was finalizing the sale of "my" dress for another bride.

I was heartsick.

However, my resourceful mother and I drew what we remembered the dress looked like and went to see her sister, Carolyn, who "loved to sew and was quite good at it. ".Together, they found patterns she could use and started making my dress. At some point, my best friend Bonnie joined the project. She is also an excellent seamstress.

We paid about $30 for the material and gave Aunt Carolyn this epergne as a thank you.  For many years, it held flower arrangements for family weddings and celebrations.  Aunt Carolyn gave it back to me several years ago.                                                                                                                      Sadly, the marriage ended after 15 years, and the dress has been hanging in my closet. I may have felt it was tainted. I knew my daughters wanted their own dresses,

I just didn't know what to do with it.  So I kept it.

And then I had a thought: Could the lace be removed and some sort of memento made for my grandchildren? Although they were born long after I was divorced from their grandpa, they have always known that I believe the children born to Ray Parker and me are an incredible blessing. They have had a good life since we were divorced, and each of them—and subsequently my seven grandchildren—has some of his good genes.

And so I found a seamstress.

If you count these, you might say - but Paula has seven grandchildren.

Third grandchild, Grace, will be the first of my grandchildren to marry when she is the bride in early summer.  She has her handkerchief.

I'm excited about her wedding. I am planning to wear the dress I wore to her parents' wedding more than 25 years ago.

Did I mention I am sentimental???

 May you have enough sunshine in your life. . . .  to make you appreciate the shadows

Tuesday, April 15, 2025

Business as usual (Days two and three of a Holy Week Journal)

What happens during Holy Week?  

Until five years ago, when I was one of the many who were "stuck" at home, I don't think I had given much thought to what went on between that day when Jesus was honored with a chorus of Hosannas and a palm-laden path and the events that led to His crucifixion and resurrection.  

And full disclosure, I only wondered that as I pondered what to write in my journal. So I was curious I might learn when I saw those five words:  What happens during Holy Week?

I anxiously opened the story, hoping to find answers to a question I didn't really know I had.

One interesting tidbit: The words "Holy Monday" and "Holy Tuesday" were used to describe the early days of the week. I hadn't seen them before. They are terms used in the 21st Century. I still wonder what Jesus's followers did in those days.

One source (Christianity.com) says that Jesus taught His followers the importance of forgiving one another.

So, for Jesus and His disciples, it was the same as any other day.  

He knew what lay ahead, which also meant the disciples would experience fear, anger, and grief at the hands of religious leaders and even one of their own.  

And so, He taught them.

For Jesus, it was simply

Business as usual. 

And for His followers -- it was better, I think, that they did not know what was going to happen.

As Paul Harvey would say, there would be the REST of the STORY.

           May you have enough sunshine in your life to make you appreciate the shadows